January 2012
1 post
2012.New beginning.
so its already mid of january and i finally got the time to tumblr again:)
looking at my last post and reminds me how much things have changed, so i finally
heard him saying that magic word even before 2years:”) and things have been rather complicated but glad we are here today. so new year have changed most things im no longer the workaholic, im a full-time student once again. i have a...
November 2011
2 posts
08.08.11
I miss celebrating anniversaries!
I miss getting suprises!
I miss feeling like im the only one!
I miss pampering you!
I just fucking miss you.
2years time i will makesure you say something like that*promise*
Crashing.
SO PREETTY. I HAVE POSTED BEFORE A GREEN ONE.BUT STILL HAVE NOT FOUND ONE!!
IN ANOTHER NOTE:
So its been weeks since everything started to fall apart, i no longer know what to expect or what to say to you. We have been hanging around but its not the same anymore.Sigh.
October 2011
1 post
September 2011
4 posts
You make me feel like a freak.
Never once i wanted someone to stay with me forever but now i have found one that i never want to let go;’)
Wishing over shooting stars that we will get better.
August 2011
6 posts
Hard to say-Chicago!
Had a decent pillowtalk after ages with a goodfriend of mine,talking to girlfriends are always the best thing to do;)
I’m left with one of my best memory for the year,that night where the truth came out and the risk we took.I can still replay the song you played in my head now.
I must say,you’re wonderful(i would never say this on your face because you’re too vain to handle but...
Its a beautiful morning.
So my awesomepossum bf decided to bother me early this morning because im working and he is NOT. He claims to be the best bf on earth because he called in to give me morning wishes and so called motivation to work on a sunday and compared himself with WL through out our conversations.LOL
I hope you read this WL,he is jealous of the tshirt im wearing for you today. So make sure you smack him once...
Fire.
Its amazing how someone can make you so upset and yet you can never screw them up,probably you’re used to it or perhaps i adore them too much.
I love that picture and how i spent half of my holidays on my phone listening to someone ranting on how much he misses me. I loved how i left the city for a long vacation after getting a huge confession from you!
Im glad we took the risk;)
36days...
Give me everything.
I started liking the song and never once i went through the lyrics till minutes back,and now i really know why he loves the song and plays it all the time when we are together.
So life started to take a big turn once again.
Though everything seem fine i just feel like moving somewhere far away,leaving in a distant with everyone.
I want to be alone like really alone.
and i started to kick...
Hair Tatoo.
I miss my hair tatoo,my hair is growing back and its ugly!
Okay,life is getting stress up again with 2nd year around.
Im afraid of growing up.I swear
Happy one month and 2days to you;)
<3
July 2011
2 posts
Last night.
So the one week vacation was perfect,beyond expectations. Everything was amazing and no drama this time around.I’m glad.
In a month, everything changed,unexpected things happens and you’re ought to learn them.Seem like everything was planned for you.only you and no one else.
I’m glad i am who I’ve became;)
Quite annoyed to get back to work this weekend,looking at the...
Skipping along.
A month now.
Im still in the state of shock.
Still pondering about us.
3more days and I will be away for a week to get myself fixed up.
Will get back and back to my epic life before you appeared.
i tried my best to be there for you but seem like you dont need me,so lets just walk away though we are surrounded with mutual friend
June 2011
2 posts
Tale.
I’m back tumblring after a pretty rough and dramatic weeks. It was beyond of what i expected and foresaw to be honest,too many people involved and everyone just wants to be the good one in this whole issue. So after several talks and lectures with my very own truthful friends, I think I’m the only person to take control of my life not anyone else even if it means i love you this...
May 2011
5 posts
Post exam.
Im finally done with my 1st year(I think).EXAMS are over! So i had 101 plans and initineries to do after exams,so far none has been completed due to severe procrasinations and I have been catching up with my sleep;)
SAY YOUR’RE PROUD OF ME.
So Friday was my last paper,this year was different instead of getting home and sleeping or going out and celebrating with collegemates,i had to go to...
Now.
I feel so unusual and abnormal. Hate this moment right now. Absolutely in the need for a hug and tell me I will be okay soon. Exams make me emo,no doubt!
Shooting stars.
To the one on the other side of the ocean,
Thanks for always being there for me no matter how busy you are,you still look for me. I’m terribly sorry if I’ve been abandoning you for past few weeks but guess everything is back to the usuals now just like how we manage to name the stars last night and planning on your journey in minutes times to get to Bangsar from Australia. I know it...
You should know.
“I hadn’t realized how much I’d been needing to meet someone I might be able to say everything to.”
-Talk Before Sleep, Elizabeth Berg-
I want you to know that you have never been a distraction to me before, in fact i have been doing pretty well with you around.So stop thinking and staying away.
;')
I didnt know you blogged but had a feeling you would so decided to come online. There we go..
I’m sorry if i have been really angry pass few days, I know I did raise my voice on you. I promise to be all good after exams and hope you will really put up with my exam attitude for the next three weeks.
I’m just preety stressed up,swear to god this is not easy for me.I wish I was...
April 2011
10 posts
Rain.
Something about LIFE that i hate extremely. It always cause you to think and regret over things even if its just a tiny bit part of LIFE.
*sigh*
Its never easy for you to turn back and go back to where once you belong. You cant never be the bitch once you were.You cant never earn back what you had earlier.That sucks.
Exam in week time.Im being beyond paranoid.
I think i really need to shop...
Coincidence.
I found this amusing.
enuf said.
Boredom.
=D
IM SUCH A RETARD and my bf decided to ignore me=.=”
4:34 a.m
This is how messed up i am to still be awake at this hour although i barely slept the day before.
I cant help myself from thinking.
Should have just stayed where I was.
Should not have gave up on my decisions.
Now it just plainly hurts when you realise you have and giving more than what you’re getting in return despite all the words. Guess words will always only be words.
FML.
I just...
well said.
What is done is done. What is past is past.
— Oscar Wilde
Karma.
It felt the same when the month started off with unhappy stuffs then it just continued with more things to cause more stress and disspointments despite the smile you see on my face.
Times like this I wish i own a better personality,a better brain and greater ability to think over things before deciding. I wish i wasn’t fragile, I wish i never changed and remained tough as before so i...
Black Circuit.
Finally it was 9th of April so the event of the year blasted.Was working for it the past few weeks doing the invites and confirmations for the gues list. So yesterday after my real job I had to go Palace of Golden Horses for the event.The crowd was crazy two times bigger than last year,more chaos this time.The place was so fucking dirty once everyone left=S
After the party,went for supper with...
Turning back.
Wish yesterday never happened.
Out of expectation and alot more than just a dissapointment.
I wish i was more rational and sane about things,maybe i really do suck at things like this.
Laid awake rationalizing everything till this morning which was crazy.I did nothing but to just think=.=
My sleeping disorder have just got alot more interesting.
Somehow im so lost right now.
I have no idea...
April fool.
This year was different.
No one played any trick this year around.
Im glad for that.
But something else made me feel like a complete fool for a moment.
FML.
p/s to BOLD:Im sorry for being so cranky earlier,nothings going to change.I promise you.
March 2011
8 posts
“If I know what love is, it is because of you.”
– BOLD (via jreshkarlz)
aww.thank eu b.
Reply to your post.
To the guy who spammed my blog,
Thank you so much for accepting me for who i am and tolerating with all my craps.
You’re definitely my sunshine;)
I want to be the girl that made a difference in your life and i want to be the girl that you can write a story about because you are in mine.
I wont want to trade you for anything even if it is anything at all,nothing could go better than you.
...
wats love
LOVE…LOVE…LOVE… it jus comes n leaves wit the feel which might cause happiness, sadness, memories and even lessons…
for a moment it will be like rising sun which rises up n shine the whole world, bt whn it sets, goshhhh bck to square 1… hw nice if it was always the rising sun n never sets…
there i am standin wit all the hopes to be the rising sun for you now n...
5days.
5days till i turn TWENTY.
As much as im excited to have real fun and go crazy before i start shutting myself frm social life for exam sake.Im quite stressed thinking about how fast time flies and im growing old.
So much more responsibilities and commitments.
Zzzz.i have amazing capabilities to think alot more than what i should be thinking.Do i even make sense?
Okay.Crap.i just felt like...
Riverside.
Cant help mysellf from playing ‘em in my head.
It has been days,weeks that im feeling very much contented and pampered.
But the thought of how long more this going to last shakes me up like crazy.
To be honest,im afraid but whats life without a little trust.
So i started to believe in this once again and you’re definitely to be blamed for.
*fingerscross*
The BB day.
As planned we got our BB today.one is Curve and another is Bold.its Black and White.
These are the things we do and we are still unsure why we do them;)
I never thought i would use a BB.
1st cuz i rather spend that cash on BAGS;D
2nd i complained once about BB phones.
3rd its too commercialised.
besides that point.
marriage was a topic today.
i dont see myself there yet,what you say?
wARGHHH!
man.
this is so hard.
its frustrating.
its irratating.
causes me alot of time.
time to end shits.
i hate migraines so fucking badly.=.=
February 2011
11 posts
Late night drives.
Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn’t make you love them any less. Sometimes you love them more.
— Nicholas Sparks
When we started to whisper quietly yesterday,this was the only thing was running in my mind. I rather see you happy then making things hard for us both.
Im gonna miss you terribly very soon.
BB.
I NEED A FREAKING NEW HANDPHONE.
p/s: Mcds make me happy!
my nieces are so freaking adorable.ahhhhh!
Bowling,next;guitar sessions.
I spent my whole Sunday bowling.Joined my company’s inter bowling competition.I thought it was Inter-department and had the hope to fight for the Iphone4.Who knows the whole company was playing-.-
Nevertheless,it was fun and I was bowling after months and was the terror one in the team first two rounds till someone took over me.And yet he was not satisfied so we drove to a different alley...
All i need in life.
Third day in Bangkok and shopping at Centre Point.
Did i mention their Forever 21 is so huge. (triple of Pavilion’s and there is two floors)
All I need in LIFE to keep me contented;SHOPPING.yes buying something for myself makes me happier than getting kissed by a guy;)
Im not ashame to admit that.
I NEED SOME SHOPPING.Though im...
Crazy.
Honestly i wish i could just scream my lungs out.
Its not about the feelings i want to express,but about what we are doing and what kind of position i am at now.I wonder if you’re nuts or you’re pretty sure of what you’re getting involved in.What you did an hour was insane.i need to scream.
Locomotion.
I should not be thinking or remembering about you when i took days getting over.
The world is just too small out of nowhere i heard of the incident,i cant help myself feeling bad for you.If it didnt end that bad i would have called you last night itself. At times its best to be this way,i learnt my lesson from you and im not going to allow you to hurt me again;)
I hope you will get well soon.